“Tell me everything will be okay if I just stay on my knees and keep praying.
Believing in something,
Tell me everything is all taken care of,
By those qualified to take care of it all.”

-DMB

Like, really? I try to be everyone’s friend. I try to support one person, someone else gets hurt by it. And again I’m left in the dust. It is so fustrating. I never meant to hurt anyone or do anything wrong. I’m so sick of not being this perfect person everyone expects me to be. From this point on, my walls are going back up. I can’t afford to let anyone in anymore. I’m sick of it. Sick of being a failure. Sick of my own unhappiness, and making other people unhappy. I’m just done done done. Goodbye past, hello future.

Blonde and burned. That’s me! Such an awesome time this weekend, though. This smile is going to last me the whole week.

My lovely vintage bag that just came in the mail and new iPod!

…But I’d rather be licking from your back to your belly.

Since the only time that I can go spending-crazy is the summer thanks to epic paychecks (and epic hours worked), I decided to formulate a list of items that are simply a want, not a need. If I stick to this list, and put the rest into savings, then I think I’ll be doing pretty well for myself. Once I get the stuff, I’ll check it off. It seems like a lot, but if I play my cards right, look for sales and shop online, I could end up saving a lot of money.

Canvas messenger bag
Ipod Classic
Nikon D90 (or equivalent camera…still undecided)
Pea Coat (I have a black one, so this needs to be two-tone or tweed and to the knee)
Year-round boots (flat, in grey or faux leather, preferably vintage)
Repair my faux fur boots
Start a collection of vintage dresses (all under $50)

Since I have basically done nothing these past few weeks, I have watched excessive amounts of movies. Most of them are older. But if you want to watch a legit good movie rather than the lastest action-packed flick that’s just ok, then here I some titles to enjoy.

Alice (the Woody Allen one)
Hannah and Her Sisters
Passage to India
Pelham 123 (the original 70’s)
Anything with Gregory Peck in it

Still feeling crummy. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m just not a healthy person. I mean, I eat right (can’t go wrong with an all-veggie and grain diet) and I’m in decent shape, my job requires me to be plus I take walks and hikes to burn a few extra. So why am I always getting sick? It was asthma when I was little, allergies since 6th grade and now I get colds ALL the time. Ugh. Why is my immune system so crappy?? Whyy????

Felt super-sick last night, so I went to bed at 8pm. Woke up feeling not much better, but I think I am finally starting to perk up. I think I really needed a good night’s rest. 11 hours of sleep, you treat me so right. Did have a big weekend planned, but I dropped everything to take it easy. So far, I’ve watched three long movies. About to put on another one. Loooove being lazy sometimes. Hopefully I’ll be good by tomorrow afternoon for Sarah’s party. Then it’s back to work. Our summer season starts Sunday…let all hell break loose!

SO that whole Geoscience minor? The prof emailed me and said that I need to have a full year a physics (which means more calculus) before I can start taking geology courses. Well, that’s really not going to work because I will not be here long enough. And I need to graduate asap, because I cannot stay in this place much longer without going crazy. Therefore, I’ll just stick with the English minor. So here is my new fall class schedule.

Monday/Wednesday/Friday

11:00-11:50: French II
2:00-2:50: Psychology and Women

Tuesday/Thursday

9:30-10:45: US History to 1877
11:00-12:15: Social Anthropology
2:00-3:15: Contemporary American Lit